I’m trying really hard to get back in the swing of things, but I decided I didn’t want to post here every day about why I’m not posting, and I haven’t had the patience to post anything interesting. I don’t know how many (if any) of you out there have suffered from migraines or tension headaches or any other sort of chronic pain. I have generally been lucky and haven’t had such problems myself, but as I’ve now mentioned more than once, I have been brutally attacked recently by tension headaches. When they come on (which has been once or twice a day for anywhere from 20 minutes to nearly two hours), they’re completely debilitating. When I’m not having one, I’m trying to catch-up on all the movie-viewing I have to do, and I don’t mean just to get my Top 10 list done (which will be as done as it’s going to be by Monday, i.e., Golden Globe Awards day). I’m way ahead of my “resolution” this year, having watched 31 films during the first 10 days of January, but that’s because I’m screening submissions for Tribeca, and as it is, I’m behind in doing that. I’ve seen about 30 films for Tribeca alone, and I believe I’m supposed to watch approximately another 70 in the next 4-5 weeks. Plus, I have a bunch of stuff to screen for another indieWIRE story, for which my deadline is a week from today. Throw in the fact that I continue to give myself more stress for not being as productive as I think I should be, and it’s no wonder that my neck and shoulders feel like a jackhammer wouldn’t loosen them up.
I’ve been back to my dentist, to my doctor to a pain specialist, and tomorrow a massage therapist. Hopefully this morning will be the last time I awaken in agony at 6:15 AM wanting to cry. (And no, no lie!) It’s kind of freaky how it’s all tied together. I can feel the headache in my jaw (damn TMJ!) as well as the top and back of my head and back of my neck and shoulder. It’s all one long, big, tight muscle or something.
Anyway, I really am hoping to motivate soon (with or without pain) and unleash a tidal wave of content — all the stuff I’ve been talking about — so that the lot of you who are kind enough to regularly check my ramblings have plenty of new stuff to skip over when you visit. Until then, might I suggest you buy stock in Excedrin Tension Headache?
Out of Focus 